I took over the entire depth, the final stage of the marriage and divorce had caused. Due to my health issues I did not find the strength to apply for jobs in an environment where you have to be strong and self confident to find work.
The changes in our economy had left me without the desire to live. I went back in time in my memories during this journey, missing the old times of smoky Jazz Clubs and a less digital world. Still struggling with the current trends of perfection in our world, at least I found some ways to get around it and find back some joy in life.
Step by step I reconnected with old friends. I found out that others had gone through hard times as well. My attitude changed and I got softer and began to get a better understanding for the situation of others in the process.
Fortunately I found work as a contractor after more then half a year in this process. It was far away in another city, but I actually enjoyed getting out of town and out of my apartment. It was not easy to get back to work and it was certainly not the place where I felt comfortable. The office was at the ground floor and shutters got closed to avoid light on the computer screens. Almost everybody was working with headphones on. It mapped with my personal situation.
I had the chance to leave for holidays and meet my best friend abroad to talk about what had happened and straighten out the past.